This time last year,I was diagnosed with cancer,breast cancer which had spread to my lymph nodes.My chemotherapy started on December 1st,then every three weeks for eight sessions,the lump hardly shrinking after four sessions,they had to change to a different,stronger chemo....it absolutely floored me,ending up in hospital for a week,out of the eight sessions I spent five of them in hospital.I ended up being too paranoid to go to work,or to be too far away from my hospital.The worst thing was the side effects,each time they were different,all as horrible as each one,but different...ranging from no coating in your whole mouth to constipation to toe and finger nails turning black and eventually falling out painfully!!I never felt so 'alone'. To say it was the worst moment of my entire life would be such an understatement,I felt as though I had been given a death sentence,and like my mum did 17 years ago,die from it. All my family,friends old and new were awesome,supportive and positive for me,including all of you on this forum,it has been overwhelming to know that people are thinking of you and wishing you well. When something like this happens to you,the range of emotions you go through are crazy,from hate to total denial to totally feeling sorry for yourself. They have told me all the cancer was removed in the op and now I have to have six monthly checks on my other breast,that's it! I'm to tell them if I have any continuing aches and pains or have any concerns....trouble is I wake up every morning with aches and pains!! I am not giving up though,so cancer can fuck off.....I thank my lucky stars for still being here,having a wonderful husband and great family and friends.For being able to actually enjoy my Xmas this year,life is precious and so is time,I intend to enjoy and live it to the full.
funnily enough i was just tinking bout you!!! maybe cos i wash washing up and thinking this is woman's work!!!! :Bag: lol only joking bout the last bit. was gunna drop you a text but i dont need to now!!! you are a star and i cant wait to get up to see you guys in the not too distant future (with a bit of luck!!)! xxxxxx
Stick in there Jen, I am still having check ups six years after my cancer, every ache and pain is a worry but I'm still here. Steve
You might have your work cut out for you LOL...nah she'll be fine and she'll visit when she's good and ready,I ain't going anywhere!!
Best attitude you can adopt Jen.......Keep it up........... I'm 52 years on from bowel cancer when I was a kid........I wasn't told what it was at the time and no doubt even if they had told me it wouldn't have made any sense.........Had to undergo a huge operation and then radiotherapy rather than chemo, still made me feel bad though. ........but they reckon because I was so pissed off with being in a hospital bed for 5 months, it made me belligerent (still am) but that's what pulled me through........ .....I just kept going with the same attitude thereafter.........and I don't give a damn.
Keep it up girl.......I'm nine years on after an op on a malignant tumour and it doesn't stop me doing stuff. You're an inspiration and it's a honour and pleasure to know you
Thank you so much,in the face of so much sadness in the world,there are so many good people in it too x
This is the kind of tread I need to return to when I get depressed about the less important things in life. To ALL of you on here who have had to face such problems I wish the very best. It really puts things into perspective.
