I don't know how many of you are aware but on friday 13th january I had a serious car accident multiple car pile up with me at the front caused by a woman speeding anyway it resulted in me being cut out of my car as I had a suspected fractured spine, luckily X-rays showed there was no fracture however I have suffered severe muscle and ligament damage. I was the only one in the accident injured. For the last twelve months I have undergone physio therapy, endless GP appointments , psychological treatment, appointments with private medical via my solicitor. My recovery is very slow and everyday is a struggle just the little things are difficult because of the amount of pain, i.e walking the dog, washing my hair over the bath, ironing, all the day to day functions that we all do, I can't even paint my toenails! disaster!! I'm on a serious amount of medication for the pain and also anti-depressants, I haven't drunk alcohol since last New Years Eve, in-fact honestly I don't miss it! I have gone through a series of emotions and the worst actually suicidal - fluxotine just sent me over the edge, luckily I noticed that something wasn't right - I wasn't right no emotion, no feelings, completely numb, I saw my GP and immediately she changed my AD, I am now feeling slightly better and can actually smile! Anyway the pain - unbearable, hurts so bad it makes me cry, can't sleep, uncomfortable etc etc, enough was enough the tablets are not helping - my body clearly has become ammune to them, no further physio sessions, its all got quite depressing, a vicious cycle "Why should I be suffering like this I was driving to work minding my own business and some impatient woman in the car with her kids unaware (probably not) of the 50mph speed limit - why were you doing 70-80?? Why? look what you have done, if only you knew what I'm going through". So at long last after having for the last few months applying more pressure to the solicitors I am being referred to Parkhead to see the Trauma consultant and orthopedic surgeon, hopefully there will be some light at the end of this I will get on the road to recovery. Happy!
tell ya what I honestly thought i'd lost her ........I got the call from her at about the usual time 0845 so didn't think anything was up " babe ive had an accident" ....."ok where are you ? " ..... "I err (tears/sobbing) " ..." where the fuck are you em!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" ........................................."osset bypass" click .......emm ??? emm??? EMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ????? ...When I got there the coppers wouldn't let me near ???? I was now in full on meltdown mode ...... doesn't look much does it .......it nearly killed her , ive never felt so alone and helpless following the amb to the hospital not knowing what state she was in????....it was three hours later that I eventually saw her ...............................this little incident wrecked our 2012 in every respect ....I don't ever want to see or go through that again
Good to hear things are moving in a positive direction. I'm still at the other end of a road that's likely to take a year or more, but it sounds like you have been through complete hell. I can only hope my recovery is a bit less traumatic but the surprise for me is emotions do play tricks on you and for no reason you can suddenly feel depressed or alone. Keep strong.
It's definitely not nice. About 20 years ago I came across a car that had been hit side on by some twat* that was hare arsing towards a roundabout and failed to stop on its approach. This twat hit the car that was already on the roundabout side on and rolled it onto its roof. My dad was in the car that had been hit. I was absolutely dumbstruck. I'd apparently missed the accident by about 20 seconds. Luckily my dad was ok and was just shaken. He had lots of people that could testify that he was not at fault, but the speeding driver was. nb *twat is not the word I would ordinarily use when telling this story.
Sounds like you had a bad time. It always infuriates me when I see knob jockeys both male and female driving in an irresponsible manner. I don't care if they smash into a brick wall however it's usually somebody else that suffers due to there irresponsible selfish behaviour. I can be a vindictive ass at times and I wouldn't hesitate one bit to take a civil claim against the person responsible. I do take things personally and don't see why I or a loved one should suffer due to an irresponsible idiot. Try to ruin my life believe me I'll ruin yours in a legal sense. Glad things are looking up, keep smiling
I completely agree until you experience trauma of any kind you do not realise just how it can affect you mentally, I'm just grateful of the support I have from my family and particularly dukes patience and understanding he is my rock and I could never thank him enough. it has also brought me extremely close to my Dad which has been a blessing - so i guess through bad some good does come from it!
Fingers crossed for you Pixie. It sounds like you've had a really bad year, so here's hoping 2013 is much better for you and Butch!
Poor you . I've never been in a bad car accident only a crappy off on my bike while pregnant that shook me ( yes I know il be shouted at , but I had to work and I couldn't drive at the time ). Have they given you amitriptyline? I'm sure they would have? As that can help with pain and sleep. The other one is that Prozac you where given ? Ok .. I was given it after a messy divorce and then breaking up with someone I loved , dad having massive heart attack and Nan dying in the space of weeks. I was 21.so just a baby. It sent me over the edge. Black thoughts .. Didn't want to wake up. Couldn't see what I was doing to others .suicidal thoughts. It was hell . In the end I realised it was the drug not me. I flushed it. It's about finding the right one if you need one. So many now they can try . I had not touched any for 18 years. Then last year I started having panics .. Anxiety and I did not know why Redundancy threat, lack of sleep, A person , finances juggling. And constant pain. A stalker believe it or not!!!!! Who had grabbed me a few times. Unreal I know Having to get police out to nutter next door I tried a couple as I was getting anxious getting out of my front door. Going out less and less. One day I heard a bike I did not know and a knock at my door . I hid... I then knew something wasn't good. I take a very low dose of stuff now for anxiety attacks. I probably don't need to now but il give it til summer then come off it . It's a minor dose for me. Pain is hell... It's miserable I understand I have had days where got in bed and thought don't really want to wake up again my body hurts too much Morphine is often my friend.. That's why I post at odd hours as in pain and can't sleep. I understand I'm ok now I'm in check .. I know when danger signs kick in now. The pain for me is not going to get better. But hopefully they will get my meds right and I can get more mobile again I was kick boxing and stuff 4 years back now So I understand .... Lean on that man of yours That is a massive thing to have . It's often horrible things that jolt us back down to earth. It puts the world in perspective . Often when you come out the other side it makes you stronger and a better person believe it or not . At the time it's hell I'm sure it's made you both evaluate life a little Lets hope your coming out the other side now ... Don't be afraid to ask for help and really push them for treatment!!! If you don't they just leave you.. So keep on top of it. You will get better ... Xxx Duke look after her I'm glad to hear that your getting somewhere !! Take care of yourself x
i dumbfounded to read you have to 'push a sollicitor' to get treatment? how lucky we are here in small Belgium Here they drive you to hospital and once you're in the hands of the doctors, you get the full full full works immediatly. With no limitation on what needs to be done... ASAP.. Get well soon!
I remember you posting on this subject before, but needed reminding, probably because, despite the difficult times, you seldom mention it. Really hope you are fully back to fitness soon. Chronic pain is no fun. Im not meaning Andy this time :biggrin:
That's great news Emm Im so pleased your getting help it's a dark place pain Obviously through chatting on phone we talked about your accident I hope 2013 sees the start of recovery
That's great news Emm Im so pleased your getting help it's a dark place pain Obviously through chatting on phone we talked about your accident I hope 2013 sees the start of recovery
