this is the first i have heard of this as i dont know how i missed it ,what happend to Darren the last post i saw was him thinking about selling his honda ,was it an accident or illness? my best wishes to his family
Just got back and I'm so glad I took the time out to attend. It was good to meet everyone and put faces to names. Steve B looked good on the bike and it was an amazing turn out for an amazing guy. Thanks to Martin (wantz1) and Char for getting me back to the services.
Thank you ALL for being such a great bunch of lovley people, and giving my wonderful brother the send off he deserved . an extra special shout out for Steve, it must have been hard mate .. THANK YOU oh and the pics help me understand what happend so keep em coming if there are anymore.. love Pete, all the way down here in Oz xx
I just can't get over what was on his mind to be planning what he did, while at the same time be talking to me about making other parts for the bikes. Poor sod RIP......AL
Al, Maybe life after death is the real deal! If so, Darren has read all the posts on this forum and i would would imagine He's thinking.............................. if only I opened up and...............
Sometimes some people just have too much too carry. He was I guess dropping hints but unless your really with someone your not going to suss. I think he was carrying on as normal to tidy up loose ends ... It sounds like he wanted to get everything straight before he went. He was trying not to be a burden to people. Nobody is a burden there will always hopefully be someone . But it's often hard to ask for help or say I feel especially if your a man. He had logically thought it through. it sounds crazy to some but I guess it was quite clear to him. A sad loss... I think there are some of us who burn brightly for a short time. He was one of those .Poor soul . But he's at peace now .
As I couldn't make the funeral I paid my respects another way. I burnt the midnight oil working in my project bike fitting the parts that Darren made for me, then raising a cup of tea in his memory. I'll put some pictures up later on my build thread now it's daylight. Rest in peace mate, the parts you made me look lovely.
I'm really stunned by it though, because he phoned me just under two weeks before it happened and asked me to email him some dimensions for some parts I had made which he wanted to 'copy' and put into production, plus we had been emailing each other previous to that..... ..........all I can think is that it seems he was living a parallel life.... I wish I could have spotted something was wrong. AL
Al you have to Sadly you keep that one life running sometimes hoping something will chance .. The other thoughts run as well... But it's a case of which switch flicks over first. It can take the smallest thing to trigger either one. Sadly once that thought process is running there is little you can do to stop it.. It's like running two film endings through your brain ... Over and over and over both are very clear. One day you have to finish the ending . It's almost methodical. So yes sadly you can run 2 life's. It's like those books that you pick the ending . He just needed some peace . It's never easy and it's hard to understand.
I wanted to share thisRead by Johanne yesterdayYou're still here in my heart and mind,Still making me laugh 'cause your stories live on.I hold you in a thought and l can feel you.I feel you and this gives me strength and courage.The tears l have cred for you could flood the earth and l know you have wiped each one away.For you brother,l promise you this,I will go on with my life and make you proud.I will always hold you in my heart.I promise you l will l will be missing you you everyday until the end of time,But this is not my end and l can't stay under that stone of sorrow.........I need to love and miss you,But l also need to live because through me you will live,You will still laugh and loveYou will still sing and danceYou will still hug and kissYou will forever be in our livesYou will forever be a brotherA sonA grandsonA fatherAn uncleAnd a friend.I am going to miss your shining smile.....And your wicked sense of humour mate Steve BI formatted this nicely. And its all scrunched up when uploaded?
I doubt anyone could have fixed what was wrong for Darren. When you cannot enjoy your life, when every day is pain-filled (either emotionally or physically), when even things that should make you smile just add to the misery because you get a glimpse of what your life could be like if it didn't make you feel so bad - there's often nothing that can be done about this. Those of you knocking yourselves out for not seeing the signs, just forgive yourselves. There was nothing that you could have done. You couldn't have persuaded Darren that the pain he was in was surmountable and you couldn't have eased it other than momentarily. I wouldn't have been able to attend Darren's funeral, this tragedy has torn at my heart and I couldn't have trusted myself to be there. I am glad for any closure that people have gotten from the terrific send-off Darren's received, both at the funeral and by those observing his passing individually, at home. Take comfort everyone in the fact that the suffering (such as I hope you never know) is over. If Darren could somehow read what folks here have been saying, I think he would have been greatly moved. I know that I am. Damn I'm proud of the people on this forum.
